To the ones I love

I’m worried, I’m worried a lot.
About your mental health.
About your spiritual health.
About your physical health.
About the children.
About you being able to work in your chosen occupation.
About you and me being able to speak our truth without the fear of being judged, targeted or ridiculed.
About us as parents being able to decide what’s right for our own children.
About our relationship.
About government control.
About so many other things.
About the world.

I’m worried about our freedom being taken away from us and being gone forever.
I’m worried that the next generations won’t know what it means to be free.

My heart is heavy.
My eyes are teary.

But ….
I have a voice.
I am of a sound mind.
I have a pure consciousness.
I have a good gut feeling.
I am determined.
I know love.
And with this love I’m mightier than anything or anyone else.

And ….
My body, my choice.
Your body, your choice.

We’re all equal, no matter what.

I’m angry.
Angry that the government keeps telling me to stay home and not go to work.
Angry that many people lost their jobs, because they are not agreeing to a medical procedure.
Angry that there’s so much more of the usual suffering in the world as a side effect of the anti covid and lockdown measures (poverty, domestic violence, suicides, people dying without their loved ones by their side, kids missing out on sport, playtime, school, families being separated for months on end, women giving birth with a facemask and without their family by their side, important medical procedures being put off, businesses going under …).
Angry that we’re not part of those government decisions.
Angry that they are using a test (PCR) that is not a diagnostic tool as a basis for all this nightmare.
Angry that they even test babies and toddlers with the PCR test, pushing something right up to their brain.
Angry that they roll out those jabs to everyone over the age of 12, even though they have not been fully tested and they are still in the trial phase until May 2023 (and probably soon to be injected into the 5 to 11 year olds).
Angry that people with vaccine injuries are being dismissed and ridiculed.
Angry at the constant propaganda in the media.
Angry that everyone that asks questions or has another opinion is being cut off all social media and cut out of the public discussion.
Angry that doctors that speak out are being investigated by the medical board and might lose their license.
Angry that so many good scientists from all over the world and all over the scientific spectrum are not being heard and taken seriously by our leaders.
Angry that our government (and most other governments around the world) are not giving people early treatment for covid. This would have saved 1000s of lives! Early treatment with Ivermectin, Hydroxychloroquine, Vitamin D, C, Zinc, Quercetin …
Instead doctors send sick people back home and tell them to come back once they can’t breathe anymore.
Angry about the 2 tier society that is already becoming a reality, supported by the vaccine passport, supported by our own government.
Angry about so many other things that are going on right now.

But ….
One of my quiet heroes is Mahatma Gandhi. I read a book written by one of his grandsons about him, given to me by Glassine from Holland. The book is called “The gift of anger”. There is something positive about anger and it helps us to stand up for ourselves. And I’m doing this in my own little way with this message to you. I’m learning to accept my anger as a positive force and emotion in my life.
I am and I will show people the other side of the coin, the other truth.
I will no longer be silent.

And ….
My dad always encouraged me and my brothers to question everything, to question authorities and stand up for oneself.
There is no authority other than my own authority over myself. None. And there’s really no room for discussion with this statement.
When you’re being told something, anything, and it just doesn’t sit right with you, go ahead and question it and keep asking until you feel satisfied with the answers.

I do not trust a government that tells me “we’re the only source of truth”, that shuts down everyone who doesn’t share their narrative, that never, not once in the past 20 months, talked about preventative health.
Preventative health in the form of a healthy diet, supplying everyone or at least risk groups with supplements that are proven to strengthen our immune system and also help to prevent covid (Vitamin D, Vitamin C, Zinc, N-Acetylcysteine, Quercetin, and others).
Since the beginning of covid, even long before, we know that co-morbidities like being overweight, having diabetes, high blood pressure will give you a worse outcome to any infection. Also to a potential covid infection. We had 20 months to teach our country how to eat well, 20 months to take the GST off fruit and vegetables and to make them available and accessible to everyone in NZ. 20 months to encourage people to move and exercise. 20 months to improve the health of every NZer.
What did our government do instead?
Told us to stay home.
To not talk to our neighbour.
To be kind.
To not go to work.
To wear a face covering as soon as we leave home, which has plenty of other side effects – physically, emotionally and socially.
To not visit our old or lonely family members and friends, but to leave them alone, by themselves.
To put an experimental mRNA injection that only has provisional consent under the guise of emergency but doesn’t have full approval, into our body and not even being able to tell us what exactly is in this jab.
All this while spending millions of our and our children’s and grandchildren’s money on their “anti-corona-measures”.
Since last year, all we hear is that the vaccine is the only way forward.
We all know that stress is a killer. Stress is increased by fear (especially fueled by constant propaganda through the media), uncertainties, poverty, loss of your job, and most of all by loneliness! And we’re being told to stay home by ourselves in our confinement group aka bubble. I know from many mums and dads that they are struggling at home with online schooling, with no work, with less income, with their children becoming depressed. I’m seeing this with my own eyes. The children that have been growing up through the last 20 months will be scarred for life, we will never be able to erase this out of their minds.
Lockdowns push some people over the edge and they are no longer coping on some levels.
I know from many friends that are completely stressed out as they are facing losing their job or getting injected with something that they disagree with.
And now I’m connecting with more and more people that have been more or less seriously injured from the vaccine. They were doing “the right thing” and they feel completely left alone by the medical professionals or the government now.
I’m trying to help them as best as I can.

And I haven’t even touched on what is behind all of this. What’s behind all of this is huge!

I wrote this from my heart, it comes from a loving and caring place.
There is so much more I want to say, but this is enough for now.
I will no longer be silent.


5 replies
  1. Llynne Wilson
    Llynne Wilson says:

    Thank you for speaking up Patricia, so many, including myself don’t feel comfortable to speak out, for concern and fear of being vilified. I totally agree and support everything you have said, I too am greatly saddened how things are, I wish you all the best my friend ?

    • Patricia Smith
      Patricia Smith says:

      Dear Llynne, lovely to hear from you. Thank you for commenting. I cannot believe where the world is going, and every day it’s getting worse. But saying all of this I think it’s really crucially important that we stay positive, give energy to what we do want in our world and not get sucked into the fear and control. Sending love your way, please share some with Ed xx

  2. Heidi Kuch
    Heidi Kuch says:

    Hi Patricia,

    I love your letter to the Ones I Love. You are speaking out of my heart. I do feel the same, it’s so sad where the world is going and how people / governments around the world can divide nations, neighbors, friends and even families. But because of this what they are doing we all have to stick together and support each other. Alone we fail, together we fly.

    Take care

    • Patricia Smith
      Patricia Smith says:

      Thank you Heidi, it is up to “us people” to stay together and united for freedom and choice. I welcome everybody and do not wish to segregate or discriminate anyone. Any my wish is that we’re all treated as “one people”, no matter our choices in life. The more togetherness we create, the less division anyone can bring between us. Stay a strong and beautiful woman as you are. xx

  3. Danika
    Danika says:

    This is so heartfelt, beautifully written, and so full of wisdom. Thank you for having the courage to speak out to help protect and empower your loved ones (who are ready to hear the message). I share these same concerns. xo


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